Today I feel very “off.” I slept horribly last night and my body feels run down and heavy. My mood is on the dark side, reflecting the gloomy weather (we’re currently having a lot of tropical storms here in Florida). It was difficult to find motivation to do my yoga practice. My brain feels empty and it is hard for me to think of a topic worthy of a blog post for my designated posting day.
I wanted to leave the yoga studio and crawl in my bed this morning instead of practicing. I wanted to send a message to the Finding Isvara girls and say, my post just isn’t gonna happen today. But even when I’m feeling bad, I can choose to show up and give what I can. Hell, I might even learn something valuable in the process!
So instead of going back to bed, I chose to do a light practice. No pushing, no expectations. It made me feel very appreciative that yoga is a steadfast friend that is always there for me. Even if I’m sick or injured, I can still practice. Rather than pushing my body where it doesn’t want to go, practicing with an ailment is a chance to demonstrate kindness and compassion to myself by keeping it light and therapeutic. It’s a chance to exhibit what yoga has taught me through willingness to surrender my expectations, if even just for a day.
And rather than skipping on my blog post, I chose to share an authentic piece of what really goes on in my life. Will it be the best post I ever wrote? Probably not, but I am glad I still made the effort and showed my commitment to Finding Isvara.
Yes, that’s what it is. Showing up when I don’t feel like it both demonstrates AND strengthens my resolve for the commitments I’ve made—to yoga, to blogging, to the people in my life, etc.
Pitfalls in yoga, our health, and our lives in general are inevitable. But we learn a lot--or maybe we teach ourselves a lot--when we are willing to “do it anyway.” We build strength and resolve for the things that really matter to us as individuals. Ok, on the real, some days both you and I are just gonna crawl back in bed if given the option. But with each "off" day, we have another opportunity to prove our commitment to what really matters to us. Even off days can be seen as a blessing if you look at it that way (said the eternal optimist ;)
Love n' Namaste even on your rainiest days,